Day 8 - late night screw up

So day 8 was a screw up and why? Because my boyfriend asked me to eat with him,.. no it was because I was weak fatty ... I'm so sick of myself.
And how to undo this shit. I like ate about 1200kcal yesterday.
Well starting today i'm on a 3 day diet bellow 200kcal, but I'll try to be bellow 100kcal.
I WON"T USE LAX!!!!!
I've been there , done that , and that shit makes you binge more often ....
Again 118ibs and so sick..........................................................................................................................................................................

Hold on, Be strong ...
xoxo
Ina

Day 7 :) was ... And MY DREAM

all in all GOOD.

I ate an small apple (50g) and thats 30kcal

and I ate 1 serving of salad thats about 35kcal

and yogurt 50kcal

all : 115 kcal

I lost one pound that makes me 115pounds .

I wanted to thank you all for being there for me when I was slipping and binging . With you I took it really good , not one cut. That great.

My DREAM

I was crying in my sleep last night and all because I thought I had binged .

(In my dream) I ate like 5000kcal and than I purged but I didn't get it all out. And than I cried and wanted to eat more . I decided to go to get some lax. but I didn't have any money .

So I was so sick of myself I didn't know what to do , I mean it was a 5000 kcal meal. Grouse!!!

I was so happy when I woke up knowing that I haven't binged .

I like said BINGE 10times already but that is all that's in my head .

Don't binge. Don't binge. Don't binge. !!!!!!!!!!!!

I had to tell you this .

Thank you again for being there when I needed you.

Think thin.

Stay strong.

xoxo

Ina

Day ? 6 ? (i think)

Was pretty great . 60kcal all day .

And guess what happened when i woke up today. I weight myself and i was 116pounds.

It seems like i haven't gained any weight .

(did anyone lose 4.4pounds in one day???)

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I'm motivated!!! My boyfriend wants to take me to meet his parents . And it's a little far on a mountain but we could stay for a sleepover . Just please let my mom say yes.

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Awww my mom was cooking my fav. dinner and i so so wanted to binge but I was motivated .

Yeah for my boyfriend . :)

I don't know what happened to me last days , I was a major screw up, but at list it didn't leave any fat on me .

I love you all .

Stay strong!

Think thin!

xoxo

Ina

Ok LAST DAYS WERE

A TOTAL SCREW UP .

I DIDN'T POST ANYTHING CAUSE I DIDN'T HAVE THE TIME, MAJOR SORRY.

SO I GAINED , AND I'M GOING TO LOSE IT !!!!!!!

Day 3 Was

COOL !!!

I ate only apples and carets so it makes my todays intake 120kcal

And I told you I'm going to post todays thinspiration SO:

Stay strong , think thin

XOXO

Ina

AWWW Day 2 was ...

BAD!!!!

I ate vegetables because my mom was home all day , and than I ate more and more.

I hate when I mess up ! I just can't eat solid food , it makes me binge .

Oh well , I'm on day 3 today and I ate an apple , and I'm going to eat one more apple for lunch , and 1/2 of grapefruit for dinner .

Update is bad because of my binge yesterday .

I gained 2,5pounds but I think I'll lose it when I get that grouse food out...

CW : 118,5 pounds.

I'll post again today before I go to sleep to make you know if I messed up again and to post todays thinspiration .

feelings: I'm just so angry at myself .

Stay strong (not like me) and think thin .

xoxo

Ina